My patient made me these sleepers..sweet :)

posted by kolos_s

if you look long enough it will suck you in..:)

...I know, I know..ok, I don't want to know, I just can't help it :)
the One, the Only, the intolerably charismatic, ..profoundly full of coccaine and profesies, effortlessly complicated and easily confused, mildly plagiarizing, but always in good taste..:)..godly or gaudy..I will take this one obsession to my grave :)))...I love you, man :)

Just learned yesterday my great grandparents were cousins. Naturally :)

http://msittig.freeshell.org/imgs/bento/

that's some crazy sushi..

Please please please God help me get this job...

Ever since I can remember myself I've been torn between feeling lonely and wanting to be alone. These are not the choices I like, but that's what I'm left with at the end..From bullies to unattainable heart throbs to witty intellectuals I've always been fascinated with people I find intimidating. I've made it my quest to win them over..and I must say I have, always, eventually, won them over, if only to make me feel better about myself. Haven't felt better for any sustainable period of time though..Am I filling the void of my own emptiness and mediocrity ?..Looks like. I am lost. I feel as if I'm trapped in a time capsule while everyone around me has moved on. How strange is it that I connect with others rather well yet have no lasting friendships..I am terrified of anything coming to an end, and, on my own premonitions, I mourn these losses before they even take shape. And I feel as though I must leave to start over, as if I just start over again, I will get it right this time..I burn all bridges, I pride myself on being a survivor, yet its the ellusiveness of my own self I've been running from, my own crushing blows I'm surviving, I AM my worst nightmare. So now that I know its ME, what do I do ?..

posted by strannik J

just can't stop looking at it and feeling warm all over...

Note to self : get rich soon, revisit THIS spot.

all wrapped up

sugar

WORLD MAP OF HAPPINESS

Happiness map (146KB

HOW THE NATIONS RANKED ON HAPPINESS
1st - Denmark
2nd - Switzerland
3rd - Austria
4th - Iceland
5th - The Bahamas
23rd - USA
41st - UK
90th - Japan
178th - Burundi

Russia didn't make it . Surprize :)

my beloved lake Michigan, revisited last night thanks to a friend

Spent a night on the town yesterday, its been ages... I'm tired now, but in a good way, can't stop smiling, this amazing tingly anticipation of things to come that I always had and lost somehow is suddenly back..nothing definite, maybe nothing at all, but I feel changes a coming, if only in my head :)..its good to be alive

booboo

shadow, sand, stone

what's wrong with me ?..why am I THAT vulnerable now? Why do I slump into self pity and depression again and again despite an iron will to stay positive, to accept, love, live and let live ?..Why is my head clear only when its too late to fix anything ?..I had questioned every desicion I made as an adult, failed at two marriages, steadily failng at third, I've alienated old friends..At 34 I have less insight on how to live with myself much less someone else than I did at 16..And I'm full of anger , and hurt, and if it wasn't for my baby, I wouldn't have a good reason to keep on going. Now I have to stick around till she's old enough to resent me :)

by A. Upart

Wow, the things you find while clearing out your inbox :)..this is a "wish list" written to my hubby 2 years back, and as far as I remember, accepted :) OK, I can let go of the world peace, but where the heck's my Armani ??...:)

1. your undying love :) ---assumed granted :))
2. your babies...............same, in progress....:)
3. all your paintings (past and present)..........assumed on permanent loan provided I live surrounded by them.. :)
4. many many many scketches, fotos, paintings, sculptures, movies and other creative replications of my oh so modest self :)..
5. lots of sex
6. lots of travel
7. an Armani pant suit, please :)
8. frequent white tulips at my nightstand
9. regular swedish or shiatsy massage
10. ok..world peace :))