Thinking back on what was said to me, and more than once, granted, always during a fight :).. Apparently, I am a "second-hand" character from "Sex and the City" and all that was once intriguing about me turned out to be just a recital of those dialogues in one way or another..Hmm.. The show itself is basically a compillation of girl talk, fashionably dysfunctional, at times it seems forced or grotesque..how many true Samanthas are really out there ?..yet there's not a woman I know that won't identify with some character at some point. Interestingly enough, for me it was never a revelation, rather a validation of what I allready knew..yes, there happen to be some haunting parallels, and yes, a man I obsessed over for years is a spitting image of Mister Big :)..however ! most of this stuff is so everyday that its hard for me to believe it can seriously shape a grown woman's personality..a choice of accesories, maybe :) Are men really that put off by these girls, these caricatures, really, and their gripes that they would use them as a derragatory remark ?..

"I'm gonna live forever..
I'm gonna learn how to fly !.."
I'm officially back into my skinny jeans and high heels, the heads are turning, the tongues are wagging, I am SO back :)

If I ever wrote a memour it would be called "Surviving Great Loves, a tale of one long post-traumatic stress disorder".

My patient made me these sleepers..sweet :)

posted by kolos_s

if you look long enough it will suck you in..:)

...I know, I know..ok, I don't want to know, I just can't help it :)
the One, the Only, the intolerably charismatic, ..profoundly full of coccaine and profesies, effortlessly complicated and easily confused, mildly plagiarizing, but always in good taste..:)..godly or gaudy..I will take this one obsession to my grave :)))...I love you, man :)

Just learned yesterday my great grandparents were cousins. Naturally :)

http://msittig.freeshell.org/imgs/bento/

that's some crazy sushi..

Please please please God help me get this job...

Ever since I can remember myself I've been torn between feeling lonely and wanting to be alone. These are not the choices I like, but that's what I'm left with at the end..From bullies to unattainable heart throbs to witty intellectuals I've always been fascinated with people I find intimidating. I've made it my quest to win them over..and I must say I have, always, eventually, won them over, if only to make me feel better about myself. Haven't felt better for any sustainable period of time though..Am I filling the void of my own emptiness and mediocrity ?..Looks like. I am lost. I feel as if I'm trapped in a time capsule while everyone around me has moved on. How strange is it that I connect with others rather well yet have no lasting friendships..I am terrified of anything coming to an end, and, on my own premonitions, I mourn these losses before they even take shape. And I feel as though I must leave to start over, as if I just start over again, I will get it right this time..I burn all bridges, I pride myself on being a survivor, yet its the ellusiveness of my own self I've been running from, my own crushing blows I'm surviving, I AM my worst nightmare. So now that I know its ME, what do I do ?..

posted by strannik J

just can't stop looking at it and feeling warm all over...

Note to self : get rich soon, revisit THIS spot.

all wrapped up

sugar

WORLD MAP OF HAPPINESS

Happiness map (146KB

HOW THE NATIONS RANKED ON HAPPINESS
1st - Denmark
2nd - Switzerland
3rd - Austria
4th - Iceland
5th - The Bahamas
23rd - USA
41st - UK
90th - Japan
178th - Burundi

Russia didn't make it . Surprize :)

my beloved lake Michigan, revisited last night thanks to a friend

Spent a night on the town yesterday, its been ages... I'm tired now, but in a good way, can't stop smiling, this amazing tingly anticipation of things to come that I always had and lost somehow is suddenly back..nothing definite, maybe nothing at all, but I feel changes a coming, if only in my head :)..its good to be alive

booboo

shadow, sand, stone