what's wrong with me ?..why am I THAT vulnerable now? Why do I slump into self pity and depression again and again despite an iron will to stay positive, to accept, love, live and let live ?..Why is my head clear only when its too late to fix anything ?..I had questioned every desicion I made as an adult, failed at two marriages, steadily failng at third, I've alienated old friends..At 34 I have less insight on how to live with myself much less someone else than I did at 16..And I'm full of anger , and hurt, and if it wasn't for my baby, I wouldn't have a good reason to keep on going. Now I have to stick around till she's old enough to resent me :)