Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Is it time I got me some happy pills ? I'm too easily depressed these days, and I can't do much about the stress and the lack of rest in my life, never mind a week of vacation, that bliss only last me a day back home..Both my parents take'em, maybe I'm doomed to never feel satisfied with my life..On the other side, maybe I should have another baby and just forget about myself already and live through my kids..I make cute babies, I'm up with one, might as well be up with two..and what else is left there for me alone ?? Great love ? Adventure ? Brilliant career ? Please...I'm in my mid 30-s, married for the 3rd time (I'm sure as hell not trying that again..), I've traveled the world, had a few amazing love affairs, and a few really bad ones..I turned 30 feeling like a kid and looking like a runway model -- all this is in the past now...I'm just another tired woman, my house is a mess, my mind is too. And love ? My husband once adored me like no other, he barely looks up when I come home now. Not that I have a lot to give back, anyway. I really am a "has been" in one too many ways. Just got to accept it and go from there..
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I'm not buying it.
You still look terrific, you got brains enough to write great stuff, I'll bet your kid thinks you rock, and you've got a creative side that lets you see the world in new ways. Maybe it's hubby that needs the pills.
ok, you're my happy pill for tonite, thanks for the tlc :)..
pills do not make things different- and doing the same thing over and over, that's doing the same thing over and over-
you have a career- you help people live, that's a gift to the world
you are a mother, that's enough in and of itself
tomorrow is a new day- be happy regardless, and see what happens
ps
i'd look at past mistakes and think about those- it's sometimes when we look for outside validation, outside support we crumble
maybe a high power
good point..thank you, really..I have a lot to be grateful for, gotta stay positive, "tomorrow is a new day" indeed, I love that, ever since "Gone with the wind" :) Again, thanks..
sorry to be cliche, i didn't realize
what i mean, is you are vital
certainly not a "has-been"
but if you need to vent, understood
Hi, Nina !
I didn't think "cliche" at all, rather a classic (though a kitchy one but nonetheless, I did like that book in my time:)) no sarcasm here, none intended..It just helps me not to take myself too seriously, and I'm glad you're not giving up on me..:)
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