Thursday, February 22, 2007
I got weird chemistry going on with a few people..There's one casual girlfriend that pretends to be my BFF while our lives barely cross, at times she's so patronizing and self-righteous I can barely stand her as, I'm sure, visa versa..and yet we keep up this song-and-dance..write in each other journals, make plans for girls nights out..I can't explain this whole love-hate thing, I trully wanted to be there for her when she had some man trouble yet the moment we met and I saw that smug face of hers I just shut down, and so did she, it was a waste of our time..yet we're willing to do that again. I caught myself wanting to hug her and strangle her at the same time, and that's just not me. She happens to write amazing poetry, btw. She's very much a plane Jane otherwise, too much so..vulnerable yet viscious at once. I'm stuck. Men are so much easier :)..
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Men? While I agree women can be difficult...men? I have given up on bff- I am happy when someone is nice in a casual way on occasion. I have co-workers who have "been there" more than people I "know."
Sorry to be a downer.
-nina
ps
I do want to have a bff, so I think, don't give up if it's difficult, maybe you too are both afraid or intimidated..I don't know, I am no expert. But something draws you two together.
of course men are better friends, there's no competition, they're loyal, great for your ego and easy to manipulate :) Women can be viscious to each other. BFF is a hot commodity, I still miss mine --I had a baby and she just broke it off, there's more to it but I had no energy to deal with her issues at the time ( I was a mess, still am..) and now our lives are just too different. But I rarely have lasting friendships, and I too prefer to confide in strangers..I just hate to become someone's pet project, its suffocating..
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