What a drag..so slow tonight, so quiet..suddenly I got all this time to just sit around and I can't think of anything to say to others, tried to make small talk with a secretary and she went on and on about her future wedding and all the crazies in husbands family, and everything else I didn't need to know..Empty, I am struggling to stay awake, its been raining all day and baby kept me up at night as usual..baby, my sweet little girl, can't believe its been 7 months already, can't believe all the changes..I'm exhausted, and elated, and lonely and puzzled by life seemingly happening around while I'm buzy with mindless chores. The anxiety is unbelievable, its always there from the moment I get up till well past midnight when I lay awake in bed, tired and resentfull, not knowing exactly what is wrong yet unable to quiet my racing mind..